What if fighting for our beliefs. Looks more like surrendering.
Though that’s the hardest thing. What if standing up for what’s right.
Means laying down our pride. Even laying down our lives
-Carrollton : Let Love Win
Love is foreign to me. God is love. So seeing it only in human terms and experiences has been my definition for most of my life. Love through the human experience in contrast to God's love, has baffled me many times. More than once it even hurt, as in physical pain in my heart, when coming to an understanding of love in the true unconditional. How can He still love someone who has done things that are so horrible? How could I ever come before Him? To actually look up, to gaze upon greatness and not be shattered immediately?
Is being seen my real fear? Am I terrified to actually be seen in all my fullness? In my deepest darkest places, to actually allow someone to peer into, is unfathomable. The complexity of the human heart desires so deeply to be seen and still adored, while simultaneously shaking inside to be so vulnerable.
Often we think of fear or hate as the opposite of love. The list below can help you to bring home the opposite of Love as in looking more like Love vs. Self Protection. See if within the listing below, how you have reflected either side. Love is the actualization of God's definition, however, we at time oppose the exact thing we want.
Could you possibly believe that God already knows all those deep places inside of your heart? The terrain of the human experience being met by a God who came off His throne and became a servant has been twisted by culture. Let's look at Love from a biblical standpoint. The list below is from 1 Corinthians 13.
Love | Self-Protection*
patient | impatient. irritable
always hopes | doesn't hope
kind | mean. rude
always trusts | doesn't trust
does not envy | jealous. discontent
always protects | harms others
does not boast | brags. boastful
rejoices in the truth | hides in the dark
not prideful | arrogant
does not delight in evil | participates in evil things
not self seeking | selfish
patient. not easily angered | short tempered. has to have last word
does not dishonor others | manipulates
keeps no record of wrongs | holds grudges. keeps score
perseverance | not dependable
never fails | always fails
While I know I often am more self protecting than loving, I do want the fullness of the love experience God wants for my life. I hope and pray for healing on this side of heaven for you to have more than your share in this too.
*Love | Self-Protecton has been referenced from by Janice Wade via teaching The Wounded Heart Ministry and many talks off the edge.